the Apology in Words

                       The Apology                                        



Today I sit, and dream of you,
and of those things I never thought I'd do.

Too often now, it seems to me,
I regret the things that came to be.

The thought of you still makes me cry,
even though years have now gone by.

I couldn't live without you then,
I would have stayed until the end.

But something happened, something bad,
even tho you were the best I'd ever had.

Something inside me suddenly turned,
and taught me things I'd never learned.

Too late it was when I was through,
and  decided I couldn't be with you.

If I could do it now I'd change my mind,
but that can't be done, it's too far behind.

All I can do now is hope you are well,
while I live on in my own private hell.

Too many things I wish I could say,
I'm so sorry I couldn't find a way.

I hope you know that I no longer hate,
and regret so much that I couldn't wait.

I want you to know that for you I still care,
even though we know I cannot be there.

But you still hold a place in my heart,
and in that way, we may never part.